No ground beneath my feet

I have just resigned from my firm in a span of just 6 months. Many people ask me, "Why did you do it"? Their typical reaction - "You should have stuck it out for 6 more months and then quit after an year was over." Work environment, that's it. Is that your sole reason for leaving?

Shouldn't that be a big reason for leaving? If the people around you make you feel like a forgotten piece of furniture. If the work that you do makes you feel that your brain died a long time and its just some automated commands that are doing their job day in and day out. Then shouldn't sit up and ask yourself, what the hell are you doing with your life? Is it really important then to look how long you have survived and for how much longer can you brag the "survivor" tag and show it off.

Instead you should start looking for a new job before you become a poor imitation of your former self. That's what i decided to do. For the six months that i spent working in this firm, 5 were spent looking for other alternatives. I have found one as of now but whether it works out or not is yet to be seen.

So now that i have no ground beneath my feet, i m looking at ways to keep myself busy. I have been thinking of becoming a radio jockey since a very long time. But i have done nothing about it except to talk to myself infront of a mirror and pretend that i have an audience listening to me and appreciating the music that i play for them.

Alas, the search of groundless feet still continues.

Sex and the city

After a lot of trepidations, i finally saw the movie "Sex and the City". And i am glad i did it, glad that i didnot give in to all the bad reviews that i had been hearing about it. Oh all right some of the characters did look like their time had come, but the essence still remained the same. The movie carried forward the spirit which the entire show had espoused. I somehow always felt good about being a woman after watching this show. Its a liberating experience to be able to see four women accomplish whatever they set out to do in their lives. The freedom to make choices and live by their consequences is a big privilege.

And of course the riot of colours that this show had to offer for me. I enjoyed watching the swish set hopping across the town, not giving a damn about what people thought and most importantly following what their heart told them to do.

Of all the characters i like Carrie the most. Maybe its got to do with the writer part. I connect more to those who connect to writing. The concept of true and perfect love is very romantic and fascinating but i wonder if it really exists. After watching this weekly show there was always a constant feeling that i could feel buzzing in my head - "Conquer the World". I think i will purchase the entire dvd set to watch at a more leisurely pace.

same old cab journey

i cover a distance of 100 km between my office and my home everyday. Its a journey that i make through traffic jams and mock hills at times and secret forest places the other. I seek faces, the look on the faces of the people when i travel. The looks worn by the beggars when they are trying to sell their merchandise by throwing it inside the small space between window and the car door. The look of despondency on their faces when they realize that this one too they shall have to forego for the next one.

The looks on the faces of the other people travelling alongside with me in their cars. Their movements and actions. If its a VIP then the look of realization that he too must wait along with the others for his turn so that he can cross the jam. The look which shows how insecure he gets at the sight of sharing the same space with so many people. His security guards doing their best to look menacing to show who is actually incharge.

There is also an airport which i cross while on the way to my house. The zooming lights overhead make me look upwards towards the sky, towards these towering giants trying to find a place to land. The huge runway with lights ablaze waiting to welcome these machines looks like a huge procession with millions of never ending lights.

The sun is about to set when i finally leave my workplace. Its a race between me and the sun to see who gets across the border first. Whether it is I who sees the sun against the backdrop of skyscraper or is the sun that sees me zoom ahead of it.